10.10.11. 5:30AM
awake to watch the sun rise for the third night in a row
drinking coors banquet brand beer
in my dorm room
alone
vyvanse, hydroxyene, xanax, caffiene, nicotine, marijuana, alcohol
earlier i sat on a blanket in grass with mallory and aaron
later i went to a hipster bar then a gay bar then a hipster bar
tomorrow i will get my paycheck
try not to spend it all on drugs
try to believe in myself despite no one else believing in me
finally do some laundry
get my stupid fucking life in order
11.13.92
the hand of life extends
as though to
greet me
then slaps me in the face repeatedly
11.13.10
the intense bleakness of an unrung steak
a retarded urge to yelp
watching ‘hamlet’ in english class
the teacher just yelled at someone for sleeping
i hate being alive
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